Replaced

My toothbrush no longer stands next to yours
My underwear removed from the bottom drawer
Our song no longer fills the air and it's almost as if I was never there

Your scent has faded from my pillow
Our picture has turned a shade of yellow
The smile in your eyes has disappeared, yet the memory of you still lingers near

The things I gave you, thrown away
No reminders left of our brighter days
In your heart I've been replaced, I've been removed without a trace.

8th July 2005

Crash

Crusin' for a brusin'
Crusin' for a fall
Crusin' for some freedom
Crusin' for a fall

Concentrating on your reflection rather than the roads
Concentrating on perfection rather than the highway code

Now you're slowly fading, the light grows darker still
Now all you keep thinking, is that maybe looks can kill.

Consequence

He came with questions
she left with no answers
his heart is up for auction
she can't pay the price
he asks for her forgiveness
she doesn't have a choice.

The truth excedes the wanting
honesty out weighed the pain
of which had been created
never to be seen again.

He broke her heart in two
when he loved another
one piece of her calls out
the other died that day
she made a choice to be with him
her freedom given away.

He swore he'd never love again
she knew it were a lie
he offered her his soul
she denied him as he cried.

Separated they go two different ways
their lives will never be the same.

May 2004 age 18

Going through the motions

As I sit
I contemplate the times before
I know I won't see you anymore

As I stand
You didn't turn to see me go
Now I guess we'll never know

As I walk
Even though I want to cry
It appears my tear ducts have run dry

As I run
I odn't look back
The light we had has changed to Black

As I stop
You're not there
I move on but you don't seem to care

As I think
About the past
We both knew it wouldn't last.

June 2004 Age 18

Two Peas in a Pod

You are the salt to my pepper
You make life taste that much better
I am Bert and you are Ernie
Together we can take a journey
You are sooty, I am sue
Together there is nothing we can't do
You are Adam and I am Eve
Without us, we would never be
If you can't see what I am trying to say, here's a little clue; I am totally and utterly, madly in love with you!

Honestly, Maybe

I feel alienated
I feel so deprived
I feel like i've compensated for all of my life.

You feel like you owe me nothing
But I've been waiting for so long
You feel like you've seen it coming, oh how you were wrong.

I feel untouchable
You fell out of reach
I feel so un loveable, you won't ever see.

Now I know it's over
I can wrap up warm
Save all the memories to protect myself from harm.

Now I can finally tell you things won't ever be the same
I can start all over again,
I bet you wish you never came.

Jan 2003 Age 16

Everytime

Everytime I see you it's like i've been reborn.
Everytime I hear you I want to repeat the sound.
Everytime you're near me my hear begins to pound, yearning for you to love me and take me as I am.

If I could save this moment as I look into your eyes,
I'd ask God to bless you and keep you in my life.
But for now this is a secret a story left untold, until I find the courage to let my hear unfold.

March 2003 Age 16